Yes, it is my birthday today (the big 3-8) and no, I haven't really cried...but I almost did. And not because there will now be 38 candles on my cake. Birthdays don't bother me and I'm not sad about turning a year older. It's just been a supremely shitty week! I don't air the dirty laundry of those close to me, but let's just say it's just been a tough few weeks lately for my children and it's been breaking my heart. And then another person added additional shit onto the already heaving pile o' crap with an email that was sent with love but riddled with sideswipes. So it was a very emotionally charged week and I think I'm still drained and deflated from all of that.
On top of that, I've been having pain in my left calf for weeks now - nothing major, it just felt like a really tight muscle that wouldn't loosen up. But twice in the past week I had a horrible popping sensation in the calf which caused me to immediately cry out and hobble to the house to put an ice pack on it. So I saw an orthopedist yesterday and she thinks it may actually be tendonitis where one of the calf muscles attach to the back of my knee. When she pressed on where that tendon is I yelped and broke out in a cold sweat, so that was a pretty good indication that something's going on in there. Needless to say, the thrice weekly physical therapy appointments for the next month start on Tuesday morning. But having had 5 surgeries on my left ankle over the years and tendonitis many times - think left ankle, right knee, right inner elbow - I'm no stranger to physical therapy. And I've always responded very well to PT so I'm hopeful this will be a temporary pain in the ass, I mean leg.
And finally, no surprise here, I'm still spotting. WTF!!! Seriously!!! Can Aunt Flo just freaking show up now, please??
So back to the fact that it's my birthday. DH & I went out for breakfast at the diner this morning...fancy dinner was not one of my desires given my down-turned mood, but a yummy breakfast of french toast with a side of corned beef hash was spot on! My poor DH is at a loss for what to get me present-wise. If my brain could actually function after this past week I could be of more help in letting him know what I want, but I seriously have no freaking idea. In all honesty I really have everything I want, but I reserve the right to finally decide on presents at a later date. :-)
For all my friends and family that have sent birthday wishes through cards, facebook, text messages, phone calls, message boards, etc - Thank you all!! The wonderful birthday messages have brought a smile to my face today and that's the best present I could get so thank you! And I'll post again Monday after DH & I return from our IVF group session at the the fertility center to let you know what that encompassed. Ciao for now!
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