Goodbye pregnancy and fallopian tube

I'm still kinda groggy from last night so this will be a short post until I muster up more energy, but the ultrasound did show a pregnancy outside of the uterus and free fluid (blood) pooled behind the uterus. With a sac present and blood in the abdomen it was evident that this ectopic pregnancy was too late for the methotrexate shot, so we went straight from the RE's office to the hospital. Had surgery last night and they removed the ectopic pregnancy and the left tube so I'm left with zero tubes and one ovary. Thankfully I was able to come home last night, well just after midnight, so I could at least sleep comfortably and not in a noisy hospital surrounding like last time.

Right now I feel more shock than anything - that this would happen again and only 6 months & 1 day after the last time. Grief is going to hit me and hit me hard, I just don't know when.