There's no way to sugar coat it...this just plain sucks!

Well, the bloodwork shows I am pregnant. And it shows it's probably another chemical pregnancy. Three pregnancies in the past year and now three losses. Fan-fucking-tastic!

The spotting and cramping are worse today so I wasn't feeling optimistic to begin with but then the RE's office called back to say the hCG level was only 10 and the progesterone 5.5. In other words, these levels are pretty consistent with it not being a viable pregnancy (chances are the hCG level was previously higher in order to register a positive on an HPT and are now dropping) and I should expect my full visit from Aunt Flo at any time now.

So now I go back for another blood draw Friday to make sure the hCG levels make it back down to zero. (Up and down numbers can be evidence of ectopic or an unresolved miscarriage so they have to do this monitoring.) Then as the icing on this piece of shit cake I've been served, since we have to monitor the levels, we have to wait until my next cycle to try the IUI so we won't be looking at starting that till September now. When you've tried for 20+ cycles already, what's waiting another one right? Yeah, tell that to my almost 38 year old ovary and my broken heart. As the title of this post says, this just plain sucks!