Not looking so great

Well, I had my 5th blood draw this morning and the nurse just called back with the results.

Here's how the conversation went:
NURSE: Your numbers went up to 1724 so that’s good.
ME: Yeah but they didn’t double.
NURSE: Yes they did, doubling would have been 1400.
ME: Yeah, but it's been 4 days, not 3. (I had already looked up that at a minimum they'd need to be over 1800 to have doubled within 3 days.)
NURSE: Oh. [insert long pause] Well, we have your ultrasound scheduled for tomorrow so we’ll know more after that.
ME: Ok, thanks.

I hung up then immediately burst into tears. Numbers that fluctuate or don’t double within 48-72 hours are a classic sign of ectopic. I can’t go through another night of wondering and worrying that this is another ectopic. If it is ectopic and they catch it early enough, I can get the methotrexate shot to stop the pregnancy. If it gets too late and the tube has ruptured or there’s internal bleeding (last time it was my ovary that was hemorrhaging) then the shot is not an option and surgery is the only option left. Oh god, I do not want to lose my last tube and/or ovary.

So in my blubbering, crying, stuttering voice I called and left a message for the nurse asking if there is any way I can get the ultrasound done today. God bless her, she called me back within a few minutes and I've got a 3:45 appointment to meet with the doctor and have the ultrasound. Keep the prayers coming please!